Thank goodness it’s you!
I feel that I can finally breathe again.
Thank you for not allowing me to pass out.
I hope you have had a splendid week and that you did something bold, bolder than your usual boldness.
And if you don’t see yourself as a bold person, let’s talk.
Today, I woke up feeling airy.
Not that this is a bad thing. I just felt like I was floating through the morning, only moving at the speed of the slight morning breeze.
And through this time of feeling positively weightless, I have found myself stuck in this gap composed of a lack of motivation to do certain things that I always do.
For example, the gym. I still go three times a week, but there’s a larger portion of me that has no want to go anymore. What the heck, portion?
Another example, a more important one, this blog. I have been as dedicated as I feel like I can be to this and to you, but lately, I have struggled to find that spark that lit the end of the wanting-to-write fuse.
It’s not you, I promise.
Well, it’s something. I’m not sure what.
But through typing this, I am slowly seeing what it is.
I feel like I’ve run out of things to say.
I feel like I can’t say anything else to bring us together.
I feel like I can’t write another post on love, another post on singleness, another post on insecurities with looks, etc.
But the more I type this post, I realize that I don’t have to talk about all those things all the time.
I don’t have to search within myself for what you want to hear.
Because within myself, I’m never going to know what you want because I’m in me.
With all this decompressed realization through a blog post, I see that I need to stop looking for what you want.
You are so important to me, you know that, but I can’t always try to see you when I type.
That’s not the point.
Because the world isn’t all about us.
It’s about the world and how we can turn it into a better place.
So instead of trying to please the inter-webs, even though that was never my original intention; it just sort of happened over time, I am going to just share what I feel like sharing.
If you relate, awesome.
If you don’t, awesome.
Because we are all unique and all struggle with different things.
But regardless of what we are going through. Regardless of how different we all are, we can all still come together as one.
So let’s just be one abstract painting of all the crap and goodness that happens in our individual lives, and let’s use that painting to amaze the world we want to better before we go.
Wow, for the first time, I like being burned out.
I hope that this acts as a reminder that being burned out can allow ourselves to know what we are really doing here.
So if you’re burned out today, ask yourself what can be learned from this.
Because you can’t quit right this second, so you might as well learn more about your lovely self.
Love you guys,